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Monday, July 4, 2011

All the while i just wanted someone to be there for me and watched for me. Listen to what i want to say and understand how i am feeling. i know i should be honour when there's somebody there for me now yet i did not cherish. I always wanted the other person to give in to me instead of me giving in to the other. I will always want things to be perfect and go the way like how i want it to be. But i did not think about how the others feels.

I thought what i've done is enough and things will just go the way i want. But, it just out of my expectation. Things just turn sour and become worst instead of working out. I'm tired, i guess you are feeling it too.
Love is just so funny, even you love one another that does not mean things can clap. Both person have to put in effort to make things work. Giving in to one another, tolerate the dislike about one another. That is why "Nothing is Perfect".

Sometimes just feel like giving up on everything. Just be alone in a quiet place and think what i want. Thinking about what went wrong and why things will turn out become like this. I should accept how the person is and not wanting the person to change just for me. I'm just selfish. Everyone is selfish, who don't wish to be the lucky ones?

After so many up and down i've go through, i feel my heart is getting weaker like a thin paper. It can be tear into pieces so easily and it takes so much times to paste the pieces back together again. Still it will never become the original paper anymore. Scars will heal but it takes months or even years to recover. Recently, i couldn't fall asleep at night. Lying on my bed, closing my eyes yet still i can't sleep. My mind is so stress and full of things till i can't stop it. Tears rolling down its own and it can't be control. I only wish i can become stronger.


Ps/ I'll try my very best, just for you.

Put on a Big Smile,
and Everything is gonna be alright.
;/ Smile Elaine(:
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